The Unknown

The Unknown

Friday 3 February 2017

The unknown and overcoming it is something I have struggled with for a very long time and is something I talked about in my new years resolutions post.

The Unknown and the though of it scares me, but like with any fear I talked about it with my therapist. It doesn't mean just because I have talked about it with my therapist for a couple of sessions that I am magically cured and no longer scared of the unknown because it defiantly doesn't work like that, although i wish it did.

*deep breathe* since I was a id i hated doing things that i didn't know every detail about, I hated meeting people and doing things that I couldn't predict the outcome to and throughout the years with the experiences I have been through it has enforced this fear more and more, I was finding myself stopping doing things because I couldn't predict what was going to happen.

Last year, things had to change. I made massive decisions that ultimately I didn't know what was going to happen. I had to make the decision whether I was going to better myself and further my life or I was going to take the safe option. I chose to take the riskier option. I chose to move cities, start uni, a new job and so much more! It was terrifying and looking back all so worth it. It was worth it because of the experiences I have had (both positive and negative), the knowledge I have gained, and the friends and people i have met, as well las so many more things.

While these are things that I have taken a chance with it doesn't mean I wasn't terrified by them, I am also finding that I am still making decisions out of fear of not knowing what is going to happen. I have needed the start of potential relationships with amazing people because i am scared of getting hurt, I don't do things and avoid places and doing things because I can't predict the outcome. One event imparticular have been heavily based on not knowing what is going to happen and with this particular thing whatever I decide I cannot predict the outcome, which obviously is something that I struggled to deal with. Ultimately I have realised that, this is probably something I will always struggled with however I came to the decision on what to do in that situation. I decided that ultimately I have to do what is best for me, I don't know if it will be the right decision in 6 months, five year or even 20 years but right now this is the best decision for me. Yes, it could be viewed as the most predictable option but ultimately I chose this decision because it is the best thing for me.

Ultimately sometimes the safe option is what is best for us and that is how we should live always choosing the option that will be best for you, whether that is scary and unknown or not. My therapist and I made a list as we do quite often that list consisted of some of the  things that I have done that I didn't know what the outcome was going to be and it turned out the it was mostly positive outcomes, sure there were things that turned out to be crap ut from those experiences I have learned valuable things and they have helped shape me into the person i am today.

Live life with the thought process of how good is it going to be for you, what are you going to learn that will be of value to you!

Gluten-Free Chickpea Coconut Curry Recipe

Gluten-Free Chickpea Coconut Curry Recipe

Sunday 29 January 2017

I love a good curry and being a studentI have found that this one is easy to make and fairly cheap as well. You could also add broccoli and potatoe if you wanted more variety.

Chickpea Coconut Curry

Serves: 4

Time: 20 Minutes

Ingredients:

2 cans of drained chickpeas

1 cup shredded coconut

1 onion

3tsp garlic

3tsp ginger

4tsp coriander

2tsp fennel seeds

1tsp cinnamon

1 tsp cayenne pepper

1 tsp turmeric

2 tomatoes

1 can tomatoes

1tsp salt

¼ cup water

1 can coconut cream

Method:

1   Heat a frying pan over medium to high heat. Place all of the shredded coconut into the pan lightly toasting, stirring occasionally to ensure it doesn’t burn. Add the water eventually the coconut will break down although this does take time (if you are impatient like me, you can just use the toasted shredded coconut.) once

  

2 Add the onion, garlic, ginger and cook until translucent.

3 Add the ground spices and mix together, for about a minute for everything to be mixed together. Add tomatoes and a splash of water and cook until the tomatoes are tender, this will take approximately five minutes depending on how hard the tomatoes are. If there are still bits left mash them with a fork.

4 Add the shredded coconut mix, and chickpeas giving them all a stir around then add the coconut cream stirring to ensure it is all mixed together.

5  Let simmer for 5 to ten minutes and serve with rice.

What is your favourite curry recipe? Have you tried this one?

Let me know in the comments below.

Defining My Faith // January 2016 | New Year, Same Me

Defining My Faith // January 2016 | New Year, Same Me

Wednesday 25 January 2017

I am taking a deep breathe as I start to write this post as I don't know how it is going to go. I have no structure or plan. I do know roughly what I want to talk about but that could honestly go in any direction so please bare with me.

I am not religious. I feel like that is a bold statement especially because thats the main topic of this pot but hear me out. I don't define myself as religious in any way, shape or form. You may disagree but i don't care. I don't define myself as religious because to me that sounds cult like and to be honest something I don't want to be apart of. I do however have faith, 100% believe in God. Don't get me wrong I have my moments of doubt but we all do. None of us are perfect and I definitely at times have doubt that God is real.

If you had asked me 2 years ago if i believed in God or had faith I would have black out said no. 8 years ago i would have said yes and now I also say yes. So why the shift from yes to no and back to yes. I was bought up as Christian and as I got older I didn't agree with some of the idea that were bought up around me, I also had events occur in my private life that I didn't understand why God would let that happen. After a lot of education and developing my own thoughts about certain topics I have come to the decision that I do have faith and I do believe in God.

In the last 6 months my faith has got stronger and it is stronger than it has ever been. I have had interactions that have made my faith stronger, I have also attended 'events' that have made my faith stronger and that is something I will never be ashamed of. This year I want to expand my faith more, I want to start going to church which is another topic that is more complicated than it may seem from the outside but it is something I will potentially do a blog post on.

What is your stance on religion? What are your beliefs? 

Let me know in the comments below. (Please be respectful of other people)